ok. long time no write SR. sorry bout that. and sorry to anyone who actually reads what i write. i don't know if anyone does, but i figure since i have a few followers, there might be some who pop on here once and again to divulge in my thoughts.
so it's been a while. yes. and over the past few months, a lot has happened in the my life. i moved myself across country actually. hopped in a car in NC and drove all the way through, ATL, to New Orleans, to Austin TX, to Tuscan AZ, to San Diego, to LA...my home now. that's right, i live in Korea Town. you know, the town that's repped in the well circuited "Like a G6"medley. K-Town. And it's fun. i live with an old roomie from high school and we make it work just splendidly. we have an orange bathroom (or Mango Madness if you want to be specific) and the rest of the pad emulates the streets of Japan. a quirky fashion that has bright colors and random knickknacks all around. our apartment was built in the early 1900s and has a nautical feel about it....architecture-wise. even though it feels like we live in a rainbow (den lime green, kitchen red, hallway Tiffany blue, and the aforementioned mango bathroom) we call it the Boat House. and i like it.
i moved out here to dance, obviously for those who read this blog, and i must say so far so good. i'm awkwardly tall for a female hip hop dancer and ATL had worn me thin. i was ready for a change-o and my bottle had landed on the City of Angels. it's been 4 months now and LA has treated me well... so far. nuff bout that.
i'm learning. a lot. and i'm changing every day. i haven't written on here in a long time because every time i sit down to write i feel as if i'm in battle. i hear, "what you have to write isn't important" or "that's a stupid ass thing to write about, who would care about that" or "that's ridiculous, you know your thoughts on this or that will change into a different shape tomorrow...just wait a while, then you can write". and it gets me nowhere. and i click "Save Now" instead of "Publish Post".
but i DO have things to say. and i am constantly thinking about these things.
i went to a "community group" or whatthehellever, a bible study if you will, tonight. in Silver Lake. and it was good. it was nice to meet people who cared about loving people. i meet people all the time, at the club, at the bar, at a restaurant, at a gig, in the streets, at a class, wherever, and i care about them. immediately. it's weird at times. maybe it's weird because i'm not thriving in a community where people connect as quickly as that?....or maybe people ignore that pull they feel? i don't know. but i tell you, just like this blog that i neglect, i get scared and don't say what i want to say sometimes.
i've had a lot of sweet moments though recently. they've been so frequent that i feel as if God is purposefully making them happen in my life (at least i like to think that). a slap in the face to remind me of who i am and what matters on this earth. and i'm thankful. i'm really thankful because LA isn't for the faint-hearted. it's a metropolis full of vibrant life that is fast and furious.
even now, as i write, it's tough to put into words what i want to say.
i guess for now i'll just say that i'll try to write more in 2011. i might say things you don't agree with, that you have questions about, that you want me to extend on, etc...so please feel free to comment. in fact i encourage you to comment because who doesn't like knowing someone's listening?
i hope you've started your year off wonderfully and cheers to a new year full of taking the time to focus on what's important or at least figure that out if you don't know yet what that is for you.