Friday, March 18, 2011

so i've started back into dancing.

and it's helped. A LOT.

i didn't think i was going to be able to dance again. i've felt paralyzed by it all. numb. weak. and just powerless. and yet i opened my bible last night and came to Phil. 4:13.

I can do all things through Him who strengthens me.

and i sat there thinking about these words. i've read them a million times and understand them. but then i thought that maybe i didn't understand them. so i pulled an I Huckabees and started repeating the sentence over and over again until it made more sense. and what stuck out to me were the words "Him who". it's always been obvious to me that this phrase means that you can't rely on your own strength to get through things sometimes. and then i thought well what does that look like to "rely on God's strength"? how would you go about doing that? and those two words pushed me out of the driver's seat. and new words came in "Let go."

i never want to let go. i'm comfortable being in control of my life. what i do, who i kiss, what i eat, where i go, what i say... everything. and yet here i was, miserable and knowing i needed to change. i needed to get out the way. well i simply asked God, "how do i do that?" and He said something like, "you only have this moment, Elizabeth. so why don't we just concentrate on that first."

so today, i'm going to believe Bob Marley when he says everything's gonna be alright and i'm gonna keep my gaze up hoping and believing in something Good.

so thank you Bob and thank you God.


"Don't worry about a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right.
Singin': "Don't worry about
a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"

Rise up this mornin',
Smiled with the risin' sun,
Three little birds
Pitch by my doorstepSingin' sweet songs
Of melodies pure and true,
Sayin', ("This is my message to you-ou-ou:")

Singin': "Don't worry 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing
gonna be all right."
Singin': "Don't worry (don't worry) 'bout a thing,
'Cause every little thing gonna be all right!"